When I was a young teenager in the 1950s, I spent a lot of
time reading. I was, and still am, an introvert. My daddy would frequently
worry about me, and would tell me to “put the damn book down and go do
something.”
I have found this to be good advice on several counts, not
the least of which is that reading is
dangerous. For example, I actually have read Ayn Rand’s novels and articles.
They “scared the pee wadding” out of me. Now I see that other people have read her
as well and have built empires in this country, having been born-again into
her religion. I have read the works of her disciples, leaders in the political
arena, and see that they are serious and espouse a philosophy that is absolutely foreign
to everything I’ve been taught in books and church during the last 68 years about what it means to be human. That is beyond pee-wadding fear.
Also, I have actually read the Bible (Old and New Testaments in several translations) and, having
been in similar situations a time or two, can relate to the acid trip John
experiences in his “Revelation”. But
I also have read the writings of the prominent leaders of the Catholic, Protestant,
and Mormon religions, and can’t relate to these Christians (sic) who have made
careers out of the worship and evangelism of hate, self-aggrandizement, money,
and power.
I’ve read too much I think.
The second count upon which I think my daddy’s advice was
good is that reading leads to writing, which
is even more dangerous. Putting one’s words out into the marketplace of
words (I would say ideas, but they are in short supply these days) is to invite
either disapproval or condemnation. Or worse yet, promises of “I’ll pray for
you”. Or worst, silence.
I may have written too much.
Of course my father also meant that I should be actively out
in the world as opposed to what he saw as being passive—sitting in my back yard
reading. At the time I thought this was good advice, so I moved out of the
back yard and into church, school, and the world. I was still an introvert, but an engaged one.
I’m heading to Kentucky next week to commemorate my 50th
high school reunion. In a month, I’ll be celebrating my 68th
birthday. In honor of these two events, I’ve decided to once again take my
daddy’s advice. This introvert is leaving the back yard of my books and blogs
and going back out into the world to do something.
I’ll be back when I have done whatever it is that I will
have done.
I wish all y’all peace, love, and the presence of good people in
your lives who are not out to shoot you for disagreeing with them (or knocking
on their doors, or walking in their gated communities).
And the absence of Ayn Rand evangelists and dangerous Christian
fanatics disguised as leaders of the faith.